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Or dont, and become a pimp
'nough said.
O, hai summer <3
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| The feeling of helplessness on top of stress is incredibly unnerving. It's weird, feeling alone when you have so many people to go to. I can't really explain it, but it -is- happening.
As for stress, well, that comes with the package of finals week in college, especially when you've slacked off so much in the quarter, and have one more year to go. In fact, I should be reading instead of being on Xanga, which I said I gave up.
(But we all know that love/hate relationship with Xanga)
I feel like my life is missing something, although I'm not sure what it is. Maybe I need more people to blab to; blabbing to the same people all the time makes me feel uneasy. I assume that they get tired of hearing the same bullshit over and over because I get tired of telling it over and over. Buuut, once it's out of my system, it's out of my system, and I don't speak of said-problem anymore. The point in my blab isn't for attention, it's more of a detox.
I have no problem opening up to complete strangers, so if this is the case, maybe I need a therapist (but Im sure as hell not going to pay someone to listen to me when I could be saving up to get my own place. Priorities ftw). Maybe I need to do something thatd give me an adrenaline rush (semi/nude photoshoots ftw, as well). Maybe I need a vacation where it's just me, myself, and I. Maybe, I just need to experience a bit more in life. Or expect less from it.
I hate routines and I've been living my biggest one for a few years now. And now that that's broken, I don't know what to do. I mean, I know what I -should- be doing, but I can't do that until school's out. And even though my last day is Tuesday, I feel like it's not coming soon enough.
Summer, plz hurr' up and save me ;[
P.S.
I fucking hate living in LA during the NBA finals. I really can't fucking stand the Lakers OR their obnoxious fans who burn down the city after they win or lose the championship. Maybe it's just me and my lack of spirit for anything, but really? REALLY? Are you ACTUALLY that much of a fan and have that much team spirit? Or are you just following the bandwagon? I'm just saying, whether they win or lose, it's not putting money in my pockets, so IDGAF.
This thing is actually leaving me irritated by most of my friends.
/rant.
/angst.
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| So I'm splitting to tumblr right now, to test the waters.
As you can tell, I haven't been on xanga in quite some time.
But you never know, I might come back.
Until then: itshahaholly.tumblr.com
Also!
'Ask me anything'
http://www.formspring.me/itshahaholly
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| So in about an hour and a half, I'll be 21.
Technically, Im not 21 until 4:51 AM, but at midnight, Im goin out boozin.
Oh how awesome to turn 21 on a Saturday.
(possibly me in a few hours)
But this is my turning point in age, and it'll all be downhill from here.
I mean, what do I have to look forward to now? Turning 30?
Haha.
Hahahahahh...!
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